Life Story of Tia

long time no blogging :D hohoho~ hmm.. as i wrote at the title of this posting , it's about stuck VS move on . lol yea , i think.. it's time to move on and stop to stuck . i don't think i can do it , but i believe Jesus will help me to do that :) my mind said, " You don't have to think about people who never think about you anymore.. " yea , i agree with that . it's just wasting some space in my brain .. and i didn't get any luck for that . for what ??? i need to move on .. besides , someone has entered to my life . he said that he like me , but i'm still not believe at all .. even he is a kind guy , i need more time to think .. at least.. 3-5 months laa~ i just.. don't wanna fall at the same mistake . i'm tired to be hurt .. and i wanna ask my God if that guy was sent by Him or not .. i hope he can understand :)

huff.. i dunno why did i post this .. i really not in the mood to blogging . but my hand worked it by itself .. stupid . i.. feel crashed .. hahaha . can't think clearly . geez.. why did it must happen to me ? T.T i've blocked him from my facebook . is that stupid thing that i do ? aww.. i just dunno what to do.. he said that i'm just add more problems to him .. -sigh- it's just more hurt than before.. so i did that for HIM , not for ME ! i was happy that you did 5 missed call in 2 days .. then you said you miss me . but i know , that you said you missed me , it just bullshit !! is it your habit ? throw me down after you raise me up ?? can you please think that how if you were in my position ? i try to hate you but i always can't ! yea.. that's all my fault .. i never wanted to forget you .. i never wanted to hate you .. i never wanted to replace you .. damn .. why love is so svck , huh ? can't i get a large space from you , the people i love ? can't i b...

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march has gone .. april has come .. nothing can change this situation .. but i hope this month will be better .. there's no hope left for my heart .. never .. T.T enough , i don't wanna waste my tears anymore . at least i still have my BIG DADDY . He always make me calm when i'm angry . He always hug me when i cry . He always raise me up when i'm down . He always make me stronger after problems . His love will never fade to me .. if i can have one request , i just wanna sit beside Him . praise and worship for Him everytime . feel the joy and everlasting happiness .. never feel disappointed , angry , or sad 'cause of any human .. just Jesus , Jesus , and Jesus in my heart and my mind . love You , God .. ^^