Life Story of Tia

私は死んで感じる

~ tak kusangka ~ original created by : Septia tak kukenal dirimu saat itu sombong , bgitulah pandangan pertamaku tapi kau buktikan kesalahan pikiranku kau mau mengenalku kau mau menjadikanku temanmu kau temani hariku dengan pesanmu kesepian tak lagi menyelimutiku namun tak kusangka dan tak dapat kuduga pertemanan sekian lama tak kusadari berubah menjadi cinta senang hatiku saat menerima pesanmu debar jantungku saat mendengar suaramu kau slalu memberi perhatian yang menenangkanku beragam motivasi yang kudapat dari pikiran dewasamu sempat ku menuntut arti semua ini aku tak ingin menjalin hubungan dulu , jawabmu kucoba mengerti dan sabar menunggu tapi... sosok lain datang ke dalam hidupmu sedikit demi sedikit sirna harapanku kurasakan berkurangnya rasa pedulimu terhadapku aku menyukainya , kau mengaku detak jantungku pun membisu tak dapat kubendung air mataku apakah kau tau rasanya ? tak lama kusadari ya , aku bukan apa-apa dibanding wanita itu aku tak ada artinya aku tak berharga tapi ka...

"u said that i'm better , but how can u let it go easily n find another one ?" "my mouth can say "hope u can get along with her .." . if u can see my heart , it's bleeding .." "i don't need a beginning if it's end with finish ." "i know that u don't need me anymore . but still , i can't accept it .." "i can through this . NO ! i just pretend to be strong .." "i'm happy to see u happy with her .." in fact , i'm dying inside ." "sumtimes i think , mybe i prefer to die . i don't need to loving human anymore . only God . n He'll never hurt me ." "if i were a boy , i won't hurt any girl coz i know how it feel .." follow my twitter : tiatiadud

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i finally discovered the truth of all .. he.. he.. he ever love me before ! he said, "i'll choose u than her if u're slim n not live to far.." huaaa~ i wanna move !! XD but.. the next truth is.. he has chose her .. huff~ T.T but happily , i don't need to forget him :p cause we've chose to be besties :) but in fact........... "i've decide to locked u" hmph.. ad kata" yg bagus nih : cinta sejati takkan pernah bisa beranjak pergi.. meski masanya sirna dan ceritanya tak lagi putih.. cinta sejati tak mudah untuk di goyah.. walau godaan menderu terus-menerus... ^^

hh~ gangerti deh gue . ap yg msti gue lakuin ? :( d satu sisi gw gamao sakit ati , tp dy bkl sakit ati . d sisi lain , gw mao biar dy bahagia n gw aj yg sakit . hmph.. mncoba tuk relakan aj deh :') kek'na ga mgkn kog dy nglirik gua . huff~ T.T "i'll always waiting here for you.. waiting for a miracle of love.."

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one word to start : AWESOME ! well , i wanna share bout yesterday .. start from 7.30 am , we (me n mom) arrived at church , and paid the registration fee .. then the event begun .. 1st session : Father's Heart . hmm.. at this session , we must share about my relationship with parent . i cry much at this session .. cos i must forgive my dad .. Jesus touched my heart and told me to forgive him .. break 1 : eat bakpau x) 2nd session : Bad Experience In The Past . at this one , we must bring all the bad things in the past to God . i must forgive all people who have hurt me . i cry much too in this session .. T.T break 2 : eat nasi kotak :p 3rd session : Bad Habit . hm.. not crying on this sess . hehe .. break 3 : eat pastel :) 4th session : Gifts from The Holy Spirit . yeaaahhh !!! the most burned session ! i get the Holy Spirit's language ! it just came out by itself .. my body felt burned , and i can't see anything except light . AWESOME ! :D thanks , Jesus . i love u mo...

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God , can i request a lil' amnesia ? i just wanna forget sum memories .. it's better than i must forget it by myself .. *sob* i still can't do it .. huf~ x( wenever i arrive at home and holding my cellphone .. i always remember him ..

haa~ drtd tuh gw lg onlen , tp nyokap d sblh gw lg nntn tipi , nntn sinetron . en crita'na mirip ma ap yg sdang gw alamin . ==' geez.. jd gni .. .. ad seorang cewe , nama'na Rere .. inti'na , dy tuh dmen ma majikan'na , yg nama'na Abbi . Rere ini krja sbg supir pribadi Abbi . Abbi sering curhat mslh ce . jd klu misal c Abbi lg naksir siapa gt , dy critain deh k si Rere ene . Rere otomatis sakit ati lah dnger curhatan c Abbi ituh .. dy kan ud cnta ma Abbi . hri gnti hri , Rere tu ngrasa ga kuad ruz kek gt terus .. jd Rere mutusin buat brhenti dr krjaan'na ntu , meski berat ... ntu bagian yg mirip ma sikon gw . tp gw bkn jd supir jg loh ! ==' n ending'na sih gamungkinbanget . cos in the end , Abbi akhir'na jdian ma Rere . anyway , skrg gw ud netapin .. kek'na gw bkl lakuin yg Rere lakuin . drpd gw terjatuh ke lubang yang lebih dalem .. God , i need You to help me to do this , please .. cos i know i can't , but in You , i believe i can . ^^...

shid ! T.T knp sih gue ruz nangis ?? GOBLOG ! ngpain jg nangisin org kek gt ?? dy tu GA akan lakuin ssuai harepan gw . knp gw msi aj ngarep ? TOLOL ! ngpain smlm blaga kuad ngdukung mreka ? pdhal d dlm ati ud bdarah" x tu ! sakiiid ! argh~ huhuhu .. T.T smlm ga bs tdur n ga bs blajar krna otak gw mumet ! hufh~ capee .. tp gw ud siapin rncana . mgkn agak berat buad gw . tp gw yakin gw bs . asal ad kmauan yg kuat , psti bs . God , help me to do this .. make me stronger , please :( i know i can . i hope i can . i hope it's the last time i cry for you till that day . "even i've hurt so much, ur happiness is more important for me.."

hoaa~ ga terasa ud akhir februari . hehe n kmrn , tpat tgl 28 Feb '10 , hri yg pling brkesan buad idup gw . cos gw d'baptis selam d GBI Ecclessia :) hehe . agak kaget sih pas pendeta lgsg dorong gw msug k aer . ==a tp gw brsyukur bngd bs mnutup bln feb dgn hal ini . thanks , God :) and now , ud msug k bulan Maret nih :) i hope this month will be better than last . hoho n hri ini kand hri senin , gw libur krna kls 3 pd ulum :p jd'na gw k puri ma Ardy n Halim ! ^^ dsno gw nntn Little Big Soldier . kocag tu pelm . tp sad ending :( -ardy n me at XXI- stlah nntn , qta mkn d gokana . Lime nyoba tantangan ramen hot yg rus d'abisin dlm 15 mnit . dy brhasil abisin dlm 7 mnt 40 dtik :D -gokana's stopwatch- -Halim (Lime)- -me with Lime- stlh puas mkn d gokana , akhir'na qta mutusin buad gaul d j.co :p gw bli donat stnga lusin (Rp 31.000) n Iced Chocolate (Rp 27.000) . hoho -iced chocolate- -Lime and Ardy- hoho . sekian d akhir feb n awal maret ene :) see ya later ! ^^