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sbuah pngakuan ..

gw.. bukan siapa-siapa.. bukan orang spesial..

dilahirkan sebagai Septia, anak kdua dr 2 bsaudara yang skarang ud tumbuh jd seorang gadis 16 taun..

gadis yg (dianggep) bodoh oleh bberapa orang yang pnting dalam hidupnya..

ato mungkin gw mang bodoh sangat ?

gw mang bukan gadis sempurna..

gw cuma gadis gemuk yg pnya keinginan gila buad kurus..

gw jg pnya keinginan bodoh buad mrasakan dcintai oleh org yg gw cinta..

gw jg pnya keinginan supaya orang2 ga lagi anggep gw sbagai anak kcil yg bodoh n payah..

ya, i’m just an ordinary girl who has many dreams..

gw blg smwa ituh bkn krna gw pesimis..

it’s the fact n it’s real.. gw mang alamin itu..

di dunia ini gada yg bs ngertiin gw 100%, kcuali Tuhan..

dy deh sosok yg jd panutan gw banged..

smwa manusia d skitar gw cuma “bonus” buad gw slama gw msi idup d dunia ene..

kata2 d atas ini slalu jd pnenang gw d’saat gw ad prob sma org” d skitar gw..

besties.. hm, i do have them.. tp ga slalu mreka ngrti gw.. kdg mreka nasihatin gw brmcm2, tp mreka sndri ga ngjalanin kata2 mreka ituh..

family.. the closest people.. but do they care about my personal problems ? no.. do they always underestimate me ? yes.. dan kdg gw ga prcaya akan kata2 iblis yg mrasuki mreka klu mreka lg marah ma gw.. bhkan prnh gw d’harapkan mati.. wajar aj sih.. gw mang ud ngabisin byk duit mreka buat mnghidupi gw.. tp bknnya dewasa = bs ngontrol emosi, ya ? ap mreka kira gw ga ad prasaan ?

boyfriend.. ngarep doang kali gw buad bs mmiliki org itu.. tp cnta ga rus punyain kq.. gw cuma brdoa spya suatu hri dy bs dptin sosok smpurna yg bs bahagiain dy.. n ga akan ngcewain dy sdktpun..


u think i’m fine ? maybe, from outside..

cos i chose to silent to keep my problem..

and then cry alone to share my deep emotion..

if i can’t hold it, God is my best way..

weird, huh ? that’s ME..

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